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What would it take..
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In a sleepy, uneventful town. What would it take for a stupid, silly, unremarkable girl to become well..someone? What would it take for her to take a step out and become someone people know? People look up to? Could she maybe change her ununique, rather bland appearance and demeanor and become something new? What would it take for someone to notice her. Nose in a book, nose to the grindstone, nose permanantly stationed in her own business. Never commenting, never assuming, never questioning, just simply there. Nose down, eyes up, mouth shut.
Could she be someone? Could she be anyone? What would it take for her to be someone someone noticed. Should she smile? Should she start talking? Would anyone listen? Would anyone care? Would anyone even understand her?
Uninspired, Unimportant, Unwilling to make waves in a pond full of ripples. Why should she be treated differently then the next? She who has no outstanding talents. She who only dabbles in hobbies, talents but only finds lackluster entertainment in all of them. Nothing that stands out from the countless masses of everyone else who dabbles in them. Does it bring her joy? No not really. Does it fill the endless void of nothingness and idle time wasted, sure to an extent.
Hungry. Hungry in a way that cannot be described such a beautiful, imaginative soul trapped within a demure outer appearance. A mind that is in constant motion a blur of colors, sounds, and ideas. But again kept safe and silent behind a demure look. Never speaking, Never commenting, Never involving.
What would it take for a stupid, silly, niave girl in a sleepy, uneventful town to become something...loud.
Could she be someone? Could she be anyone? What would it take for her to be someone someone noticed. Should she smile? Should she start talking? Would anyone listen? Would anyone care? Would anyone even understand her?
Uninspired, Unimportant, Unwilling to make waves in a pond full of ripples. Why should she be treated differently then the next? She who has no outstanding talents. She who only dabbles in hobbies, talents but only finds lackluster entertainment in all of them. Nothing that stands out from the countless masses of everyone else who dabbles in them. Does it bring her joy? No not really. Does it fill the endless void of nothingness and idle time wasted, sure to an extent.
Hungry. Hungry in a way that cannot be described such a beautiful, imaginative soul trapped within a demure outer appearance. A mind that is in constant motion a blur of colors, sounds, and ideas. But again kept safe and silent behind a demure look. Never speaking, Never commenting, Never involving.
What would it take for a stupid, silly, niave girl in a sleepy, uneventful town to become something...loud.
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Another Year Older! Another year wiser?
3 min read
Greetings my Darklings. I'm super terrible about updating Journals aren't i? Anyways Loads of big changes this year! Not to many new costumes but some new steps in self confidence i did a spread as a Amethyst mermaid this year! That was a super fun shoot definitely a lot different from what I'm used to. Special thanks to The Weird Review Blogger/magazine for supplying the Mermaid Tail and top and for splashing around in the water to be the photographer!!
~ Got to work with a newer talent in the cosplay scene Victoria Miller. Who was my Alice to my Red Queen mad props to her for giving me the Red Queen outfit no strings attached!
~ Co-op shoot with Vee Cosplay on Facebook ([link]) who was my lovely Aoba for my Fem Noiz and Aoba shoot! Check out their page! Super fun individual to work with! I hope to be able to collaborate with them again in the future!
~ Unveiled my newest Elemental Absynthe! Born from the Toxicity of the planet. She was super fun to model and shoot! darrin's Dynamic Photography did an amazing job capturing the essence of the character. Right downtown from where i live DURING a local fair that was going on. Creative camera angles even local Law Enforcement stopped to watch the shoot!
~ Finally got a proper shoot of my Lady Ciel Phantomhive with my Sebastian ( [link]) ). Feel free to check him out on Facebook as well! We were at a beautiful venue. The Amway Grand Plaza downstate! That one was also shot by Twisted Focus Photography!
~ and on a closing note my birthday was this past weekend to which i also had the delight of re-attending Youmacon down in Detroit for a 3rd year running. Met some incredible cosplayers at that event! Next year i hope to attend many more events again and get to work with even more talented people, photographers!
As always you can check out more of my work on my Facebook page Trowa Saisuki. Find out what events i'll be at and the costumes i'm working on or even sneak peaks of what shoots i'm planning for up and coming! Prints are also available just message the page and we can work out the details there! (US shipping only!)
Much love my Darklings!
~ Got to work with a newer talent in the cosplay scene Victoria Miller. Who was my Alice to my Red Queen mad props to her for giving me the Red Queen outfit no strings attached!
~ Co-op shoot with Vee Cosplay on Facebook ([link]) who was my lovely Aoba for my Fem Noiz and Aoba shoot! Check out their page! Super fun individual to work with! I hope to be able to collaborate with them again in the future!
~ Unveiled my newest Elemental Absynthe! Born from the Toxicity of the planet. She was super fun to model and shoot! darrin's Dynamic Photography did an amazing job capturing the essence of the character. Right downtown from where i live DURING a local fair that was going on. Creative camera angles even local Law Enforcement stopped to watch the shoot!
~ Finally got a proper shoot of my Lady Ciel Phantomhive with my Sebastian ( [link]) ). Feel free to check him out on Facebook as well! We were at a beautiful venue. The Amway Grand Plaza downstate! That one was also shot by Twisted Focus Photography!
~ and on a closing note my birthday was this past weekend to which i also had the delight of re-attending Youmacon down in Detroit for a 3rd year running. Met some incredible cosplayers at that event! Next year i hope to attend many more events again and get to work with even more talented people, photographers!
As always you can check out more of my work on my Facebook page Trowa Saisuki. Find out what events i'll be at and the costumes i'm working on or even sneak peaks of what shoots i'm planning for up and coming! Prints are also available just message the page and we can work out the details there! (US shipping only!)
Much love my Darklings!
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Thoughts Racing.
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Greetings My Darklings. Got really nothing new to post. However as always you can follow me and my cosplay plans on my Facebook just search Trowa Saisuki. I'm more active on there. I've been slammed with work at my new job and convention season has started so i've been working on costumes i hope to finally get some more photoshoots in!
Thank you all for your continued support!
Thank you all for your continued support!
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Still Here!!! With some changes
3 min read
Hello my Dark-lings i am still alive. Just been obnoxiously busy. Few things have changed and a few things i've had to change myself I'll try to explain them to the best i'm able so i hope you'll bear with me! ^^
1st I've gotten myself a new job. Many of you know i was working at the local movie theater here but due to circumstances that i find unfair they let me go. All well what can you do right? GOOD NEWS i found an even better job that pays me much more right off the street and i am fast climbing the ladder to the position i have wanted in that company. That company is...Gamestop! i know nothing glamorous but with my love of gaming what better place?!
2nd i am still cosplaying! As you can see I've uploaded some new costumes and such the only change and difference is the quality. I'm starting to become even more critical on the photos i upload and are working with named photographers so i have to have their permission to post the photos i do post. All of these costumes i have either worked on myself or have had a hand in the designing phase.
3rd. I've received numerous messages as to why i no longer get on Skype. Simple reason for that is i don't have the time. And when i do have the time I'm just exhausted and i don't want to interact with people. Now some of you may see that as a cop out and what not that's your thought lol. I'm allowed to be antisocial ha-ha. I DO still have my Skype however I'm just not on it as much as i was cause of simply having no time/ energy yadda yadda.
4th. If you want to see more content/ interact with me more/ see what I'm up to i urge you to head over to Facebook and like my page on there. Just search Trowa Saisuki you'll see a recent photo of my Fem Noiz. Among seeing all my cosplays plus photos you don't see here that would be the best place!
Thank you all for your continued support means the world! Also all the encouragement and nice comments i get 'Noted' and the comments left on the photos i do read them and i do try to respond to all of them! I wish you all the best!
Trowa
1st I've gotten myself a new job. Many of you know i was working at the local movie theater here but due to circumstances that i find unfair they let me go. All well what can you do right? GOOD NEWS i found an even better job that pays me much more right off the street and i am fast climbing the ladder to the position i have wanted in that company. That company is...Gamestop! i know nothing glamorous but with my love of gaming what better place?!
2nd i am still cosplaying! As you can see I've uploaded some new costumes and such the only change and difference is the quality. I'm starting to become even more critical on the photos i upload and are working with named photographers so i have to have their permission to post the photos i do post. All of these costumes i have either worked on myself or have had a hand in the designing phase.
3rd. I've received numerous messages as to why i no longer get on Skype. Simple reason for that is i don't have the time. And when i do have the time I'm just exhausted and i don't want to interact with people. Now some of you may see that as a cop out and what not that's your thought lol. I'm allowed to be antisocial ha-ha. I DO still have my Skype however I'm just not on it as much as i was cause of simply having no time/ energy yadda yadda.
4th. If you want to see more content/ interact with me more/ see what I'm up to i urge you to head over to Facebook and like my page on there. Just search Trowa Saisuki you'll see a recent photo of my Fem Noiz. Among seeing all my cosplays plus photos you don't see here that would be the best place!
Thank you all for your continued support means the world! Also all the encouragement and nice comments i get 'Noted' and the comments left on the photos i do read them and i do try to respond to all of them! I wish you all the best!
Trowa
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Addressing Costumes
3 min read
Ok so im kindof ashamed that this even has to be brought up in a journal but its gotten to the point where i feel it needs to be addressed bluntly and right up front. So bear with me while i rant and get it out.
*Deep breath*
YES i have done a swimsuit shoot i have done a couple of them. THAT DOES NOT GIVE ANYONE THE RIGHT TO MAKE SEXIST COMMENTS OR SEND ME SEXUAL NOTES. I have taken screenshots of all of them and am in the process of reporting ALL of them to DA personally with how they got started. Just because a cosplayer shows a little skin does not give anyone the right to make sexual or likewise comments, passes, or slurs to the cosplayer.
NOW have said that I enjoyed doing the swimsuit shoot i did for Erza it was a big step for me in my self confidence. The rude comments and notes won't deter me i will still do costumes and shoots that I"M comfortable with reguardless if people think i look good or not. Cosplay is about fun. I cosplay characters I LIKE. NOW that does NOT mean that EVERY shoot i do will be a swimsuit shoot cause lets face it i'm not THAT type of cosplayer. NOthing against those that are i follow numerous cosplayers that are gorgeous swimsuit models. Its just not for me. SO PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE stop inserting that EVERY shoot i do will be/have to be a swimsuit shoot. It won't so get over it.
Rant over. Thanks for reading this far. As for some good news. I have alot of new costumes in the work one of them being a dream costume of mine. *i'm slowly working up to my ultimate one* I'm super excited. Working like crazy. But as it turns out th ehard work pays off and sticking to your beliefs and comfort level wiht costumes pays off i have my first cosplay sponser ^^. SO yay me! SO i just want to remind all of you that Just follow whatever hobby makes you happy follow it, dive in head first if its your passion then pursue it despite what those around you say or what negative people try to do to bring you down. If you put your heart and soul into something and it really is rewarding to work SO HARD on something and see it in person and the happiness it brings to other ppl who admire it. Its worth it. Its SO SO SO worth it. ^^
As always stay awesome my darklings. You can follow me on my facebook : www.facebook.com/TrowaSaisuki. Or just search Trowa Saisuki on Facebook pretty eays to find me. There you can get updates as well polls and such on my upcoming projects, W.I.P's and various other shenanigans i get up to!!
*Deep breath*
YES i have done a swimsuit shoot i have done a couple of them. THAT DOES NOT GIVE ANYONE THE RIGHT TO MAKE SEXIST COMMENTS OR SEND ME SEXUAL NOTES. I have taken screenshots of all of them and am in the process of reporting ALL of them to DA personally with how they got started. Just because a cosplayer shows a little skin does not give anyone the right to make sexual or likewise comments, passes, or slurs to the cosplayer.
NOW have said that I enjoyed doing the swimsuit shoot i did for Erza it was a big step for me in my self confidence. The rude comments and notes won't deter me i will still do costumes and shoots that I"M comfortable with reguardless if people think i look good or not. Cosplay is about fun. I cosplay characters I LIKE. NOW that does NOT mean that EVERY shoot i do will be a swimsuit shoot cause lets face it i'm not THAT type of cosplayer. NOthing against those that are i follow numerous cosplayers that are gorgeous swimsuit models. Its just not for me. SO PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE stop inserting that EVERY shoot i do will be/have to be a swimsuit shoot. It won't so get over it.
Rant over. Thanks for reading this far. As for some good news. I have alot of new costumes in the work one of them being a dream costume of mine. *i'm slowly working up to my ultimate one* I'm super excited. Working like crazy. But as it turns out th ehard work pays off and sticking to your beliefs and comfort level wiht costumes pays off i have my first cosplay sponser ^^. SO yay me! SO i just want to remind all of you that Just follow whatever hobby makes you happy follow it, dive in head first if its your passion then pursue it despite what those around you say or what negative people try to do to bring you down. If you put your heart and soul into something and it really is rewarding to work SO HARD on something and see it in person and the happiness it brings to other ppl who admire it. Its worth it. Its SO SO SO worth it. ^^
As always stay awesome my darklings. You can follow me on my facebook : www.facebook.com/TrowaSaisuki. Or just search Trowa Saisuki on Facebook pretty eays to find me. There you can get updates as well polls and such on my upcoming projects, W.I.P's and various other shenanigans i get up to!!
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